I Failed Today


My morning began in an unexpected way… I went to Jack in the Box for their oh so delicious breakfast and instead of a routine snack stop I ended up in a shouting match with a grown man, who was threatening to hit my car, with my child in the back seat as I screamed and threatened to call the police.

This folks was not my finest hour. You see, he and I pulled into the drive through at different angels. I was sure I was first he was sure he was first. As I proceeded, he tried to ram my car and mayhem ensued. You may be thinking to yourself “Good for you! Stand up for yourself, Don’t let him run you over “literally,” this guy is an Idiot.” While that all may be true….

I Failed Today.

I felt as if I was watching myself scream and shout with this guy over who gets breakfast first. I was almost looking down on myself thinking “hey girl what are you doing, you know better, so do better.”

The fact is,  it didn’t matter what percentage of this was his fault; my soul was filled immediately with about 1000 scriptures that rebuked my behavior.

When someone asks you to walk a mile with him go with him twain (2 miles)

We are to turn the other check

They will know that you are my disciple by the love you have for one another.

Let your good works shine before men so that they may look upon your God and honor him

Do not repay evil for evil

And my personal favorite, Do not answer a fool according to his folly or you will also be like him!

And so there I was, I had become a fool in the midst of another fool. I missed an opportunity to honor God by showing grace and humility in the face of wrong doing. If my 15 month old child could understand what was going on I failed to show him the right way.

Its funny the scripture says that we hide the word in heart so that we may not sin against God. I was forced to memorize this in Children’s Church as a young girl. I knew what it meant but I was just reciting it so that I can get the next shinny badge on my vest. But now as time has passes, you find that the Holy Spirit dwelling inside you just will not let you sin without undergoing this check list of scriptures tucked away in your heart. 

I failed today, then I asked God for forgiveness. I understand why some reading this blog will think this is no big deal. But I am reminded in Ephesians 5:

“Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, 16 making the most of your time, because the days are evil. 17 So then do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is. 18 And do not get drunk with wine, for that is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit, 19 speaking to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody with your heart to the Lord; 20 always giving thanks for all things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God, even the Father; 21 and be subject to one another in the fear of Christ.”

The cross reference between being Drunk with wine and being Filled with the Spirit is a simile. potato headDrunkenness is debauchery and leads to all sorts of evil because it takes over your senses and makes you do things you wouldn’t normally do, Instead we should be filled with the Holy Spirit in such a way that His will takes over our senses and makes us do things we wouldn’t normally do.  This includes not getting into shouting matches at Jack in the Box even if you are right.


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