30 is Not the New 20

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I am 30 today. People say 30 is the new 20 but I am here to testify that is the same old 30! I find that I have all kinds of problems I didn’t have at 20.

I have dark circles under my eyes that are going no where fast. My back hurts more often and my knees creek a little more. This morning I found an undeniable fuzz over my lip that I swear didn’t used to be there. I’ve got dimples and pimples, stretch marks and bruises. Laugh lines are appearing and despite what everyone else says I see that slight wrinkle forming over my brow.

So the answer is NO! 30 is not the new 20. 30 is 30 and 30 is wonderful! This body has started to show light signs of distress and general wear and tear. Things aren’t like they used to be but things are still great! In fact things are better than ever. For every physical sign of age and growth is matched by emotional, spiritual and mental growth! That’s a good thing! This type of growth is worth every distress mark on my body.

I am mentally more stable, I know who I am and I am firmly rooted in Christ. I have learned to not be prideful and haughty as I was in my youth. I have learned not to boast. I have even learned (to a certain degree) how to receive rebuke and grow from it. I have learned that not everybody likes me and that’s ok. I have learned that sometimes…YES sometimes I am actually wrong. I have learned not to say whatever is on my mind. I have learned how to forgive even the deepest of wounds. I have learned not to be so critical and love people where they are. I have learned the joyful touch of my child and that my presence makes him smile. I have learned that a soft word truly does turn away wrath. I have learned to love and respect my husband even when its hard to do so. I have learned to avoid my selfish desires. I have learned that I am in desperate need for organization, accountability and mentorship. I have learned that the ever cracking whip of legalism gets you no where, yet the grace of God sets you free to grow, to actually want to live for Christ,  instead of forcing myself to check off boxes in my spiritual discipline book.

Most Importantly, and I cannot stress this one enough. I have truly learned that God is who He says He is. That He will do what He said He will do. That NOTHING not even the tragic death of my beloved sister can separate me form the love of Christ. I have learned that with Him I can walk through fire and Not get burnt. I have learned that the Name of the Lord is a Strong Tower, the righteous run to Him and are safe! I have learned that no weapon formed against me will prosper. I have learned as David did, that He will truly lift me up upon a rock over the heads of my enemies. I have learned that when I walk among the high places that He will make my feet like hinds feet (a goat) so that I can walk it out! I have learned that when I come up against an obstinate nation that He will make my forehead harder than flint (stone.) I have learned that God is near to the broken hearted. And I have learned that the fear of the Lord is the root of all knowledge. I have learned His trustworthiness, His beauty, and His unsurpassingly great glory.

So I say to you through tears even now. 20 is nothing like 30! At thirty I have peace.

 

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